Song of the Week 7/20/09

This song is about being fucked up and coming out of it...


John Mayer - "In Repair"


Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in a park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready
Oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there

Mid Summer Review: Clearing My Head

So this summer is really shaping up to be once to forget. It seems like every time i take a step forward, something happens to putting me two steps behind (if that makes sense). So I had some summer goals at the beginning , but they have all be unsuccefull in some way. Well my car broke down, a broken rod i think, which means that i have to get a new car now...but i have no money...great. Money wouldn't have been an issue if my job didn't suck and they gave me hours. This is definiaty the last summer working this job. My coworkers are awesome, but the management sucks ass (and not in a good way). The car breaking down as also turned me into a little bit of a loner, because i live so far away (according to my friends) from campus nobody wants to take the time to pick me up for a party or if my friends are going to the bar. Its funny how you find out who your real friends are when you need their help with something.

Also on a sad note i will not be going to Atlanta this summer which i had be wanting to do for the longest. Once again i don't have enough money grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Plus with two of my grandmothers sisters dying this summer, not to many people are in good moods, and all my cousin around my age is not going to be in Atlanta this summer because of the resent family events. So it wouldn't be fun for me to go if i am going to be the only person there that is above 10 years old (not including my older cousin who is like 40 lol). But since i am not going to Atlanta my mom decided that we are going to go to Pittsburgh to see my grandfather for his birthday. So my dad, mom, brother and I are take a road trip to Pittsburgh once again. Which is cool, this will be my third time in pittsburgh...and i like it out there. Pittsburgh is becoming a location option for graduate school :)

So in the romance field (since i know everybody wants to know what is going on in my bed room lol)...i'm still single hahaha, i shouldn't be laughing because thats not funny, but oh well lol. But one a good note i have taken steps to moving on. I have went on a couple dates with a couple different people. No sparks though, they were good people but i just don't think they are what i am looking for. One i would say just don't have enough spice, and the other is mostly a loner someone that i would have to always chose where the hang out with him or to hang out with my friends. I don't want to have to make that decision right now, because in the past i would pick him, but that has got me nothing be heart broken and lost friends...so if i have to make that decision now i would pick my friends in a heart beat. And then there is my ex...well i don't want to go on forever with this subject but yeah nothing has gotten better between us. I mean he sends me texts ever now and then and we've talked on the phone...but its the same story, he like me and wants to be with me, but his ex is still number one in his life. And everybody that knows me know that i don't like to be in second place in anything. I still like the guy but until he decides that i am number one in his heart, i'm going to have to start looking else where for love...i do miss him dearly thou...

Next opticales to master for the summer would be: Pittsburgh, GRE, Getting a Car, Getting to 185Lbs (only 6lbs away...oh yeah!!!!), and Figuring out why i have a hole in my eye and how they are going to fix it...and yes i said i have a hole in my eye lol

Song of the week 7/13/09

Etta James - "A Sunday Kind Of Love"

I want a Sunday kind of love
A love to last past Saturday night
And I?d like to know it?s more than love at first sight
And I want a Sunday kind of love
Oh yea yea

I want a a love that?s on the square
Can?t seem to find somebody
Someone to care
And I?m on a lonely road that leads to no where
I need a Sunday kind of love

I do my Sunday dreaming, Oh yea
And all my Sunday scheming
Every minute, every hour, every day

Oh I?m hoping to discover
A certain kind of lover
Who will show me the way

And my arms need someone
Someone to enfold
To keep me warm when Mondays and Tuesdays grow cold
Love for all my life to have and to hold
Oh and I want a Sunday kind of love
Oh yea yea yea

I don?t want a Monday, Tuesday, or Wednesday, or Thursday, Friday or Saturday
Oh nothing but Sunday oh yea
I want a Sunday Sunday
I want a Sunday kind of love
Oh yea
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday kind of loooove

Song of the Week 7/6/09

TAKE ME AWAY!!!!! LOL...No seriously lol


Natasha Bedingfield - "Pocketful Of Sunshine"


I got a pocket,
got a pocket full of sunshine
I've got a love and I know that it's all mine
oh.oh,oh
Do what you want,
but you're never gonna break me,
sticks and stones are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Interlude]

I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I've got a love and I know that it's all mine
oh,oh,oh

Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]

[Hook]
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]

[Chorus & Interlude]

The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright