Song of the week 12/29/08

So with the last song of the year i picked one of my favorite lupe fiasco song. I love the message behind this song, with most people do not grasp because they get lost in the beat.

Lupe Fiasco - Little Weapon

Little Terry got a gun, he got from the store,
He bought it with the money he got from his chores,
He robbed candy shop told her lay down on the floor,
Put the cookies in his bag took the pennies out the drawer.

Little Kalil got a gun he got from the rebels,
To kill the infidels and American devils,
A bomb on his waist,
A mask on his face,
Prays five times a day,
And listens to Heavy Metal.

Little Alex got a gun he took from his dad,
That he snuck into school in his black book bag,
His black nail polish, black boots and black hair,
He's gonna blow away the bully that just pushed his ass...

[Lupe Fiasco]
I killed another man today,
Shot him in his back as he ran away,
Then I blew up his hut with a hand grenade,
Cut his wife's throat as she put her hands to pray,
Just five more dawgs then we can get a soccer ball,
That's what my commander say,
How Old?
Well I'm like ten, eleven, been fighting since I was like six or seven,
Now I don't know much about where I'm from but I know I strike fear everywhere I come,
Government want me dead so I wear my gun, I really want the rocket launcher but I'm still too young,
This candy give me courage not to fear no one,
To fear no pain, and hear no tongue,
So I hear no screams and I shed no tear,
If I'm in your dreams then your end is near.
Yeah

[Chorus - Nikki Jean]
Little Weapon,
Little Weapon,
Little Weapon
We're calling you
There's a war
if the guns are just too tall for you
We'll find you something small to use
Little Weapon, Little Weapon, Little Weapon
We need you now, pow

[Lupe Fiasco]
Now here comes the march of the boy brigade
A macabre Parade of the toys he made
And in Shimmer shades who looks half his age
About half the size of the flags they waved
And Camouflage suits that made to fit youths
'cause the ones of the dead soldiers hang a little loose
And AK-47's that they shooting into heaven
Like they're trying to kill the Jetson's
They struggle little recruits
Cute Smileless, Heartless, violent
Childhood destroyed, devoid of all childish ways,
Can't write their own names or read the words on their own graves
Think you gangster popped a few rounds,
These kids will come through and murder a whole town,
Then sit back and smoke and watch it burn down,
The grave gets deeper the further we go down

[Chorus]

[Bishop G]
Imagine if I had the console,
The family of those slain,
I slain on game consoles,
I aim I hold, right trigger to squeeze,
press up and Y one less nigga breathe,
B for the Bombs press pause for your moms,
Make the room silent, she don't approve of violent games,
She leaves resume activity,
Start and blew hearts with poor harsh wizardry,
On next part I insert code
To sweeten up the purses of murder work load
I tell him he work for
CIA with A
With operative, I operate this game all day
I hold a controller connected to the soldier
With weapons on his shoulder he's only seconds older than me
We playful but serious, now keep that on mind
for on line experience

[Chorus x2]

Song of the week 12/22/08

well its christmas time so duh i would pick a christmas song lol. my favorite christmas song of all time :D

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You


I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

Song of the week 12/15/08

Well this song seems great for now, seeing that i have a crush ;-)

David Archuleta - "Crush"


I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush
What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much
Just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know

[chorus]
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But i know this crush ain't going
Away
Going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time, girl, are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Forever

[chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
(Why do I keep running)
All I ever think about is you
(All I ever think about)
You got me hypnotized
(Hypnotized)
So mesmerized
(mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

[chorus]

Going away
Going away

Song of the week 12/08/08

Natasha Bedingfield - "Angel"

A.n.g.e.l
A.n.g.e.l

Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
I'm there to guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I want a be your zone
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
With every promise given
Making vows to please her man

[Chorus:]
If I could be your angel (your angel, your angel)
Protect you from the pain (from the pain, oh)
I'll keep you safe from danger (from danger, from danger)
You'll never hurt again (no more)
I'll be your
A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'm gonna be your A-N-G-E-L
A-N-G-E-L
I'll be your angel

Just like the moon
I'll step aside
And let your sun shine
While I follow behind
Cause baby what ya got
It is with all the props
You're everything I'm not
I'll act as if you do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
With every promise given
Making vows to please her man

[Chorus]

Tell me why there's so many good men
Men in the world misunderstood
He's a dog, he's no good
I wish somebody would
Disrespect my man
You're gonna have to come see me
I go hard for my baby
He's all that I need

So if you got a good one
Put your hands up,
Come on girl and stand up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, put your hands up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, stand up
Come on girl, and stand up

Song of the Week 12/01/08

I like this song, and it is on one of my favorite games, Madden 2008. plus we all need something to believe

The Bravery- "Believe"

The faces all around me they don't smile they just crack
Waiting for our ship to come but our ships not coming back
We do our time like pennies in a jar
What are we saving for [x2]

There's a smell of stale fear that's reeking from our skins.
The drinking never stops because the drinks absolve our sins
We sit and grow our roots into the floor
But what are we waiting for? [x2]

[chorus:]
So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

Something's always coming you can hear it in the ground
It swells into the air
With the rising
Rising sound
And never comes but shakes the boards and rattles all the doors
What are we waiting for [x2]

[chorus]

I am hiding from some beast
But the beast was always here
Watching without eyes
Because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing
Now its just what I've become
What am I waiting for
Its already done

Oh

[chorus]

Song of the Week 11/24/08

So i heard Soulja boy on the radio and it just made me mad because he is the worst thing that happened to hip-hop music. Total garbage, so this week i have a classic for you. Now this is real Hip-hop, so listen to The Message

Grandmaster Flash- "The Message"


It's like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder
How I keep from going under
It's like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder
How I keep from going under

Broken glass everywhere
People pissing on the stairs, you know they just don’t care
I can't take the smell, I can't take the noise no more
Got no money to move out, I guess I got no choice
Rats in the front room, roaches in the back
Junkie's in the alley with a baseball bat
I tried to get away, but I couldn't get far
'Cause a man with a tow-truck repossessed my car

Chorus:
Don't push me cause I'm close to the edge
I'm trying not to lose my head, ah huh-huh-huh
[2nd and 5th: ah huh-huh-huh]
[4th: say what?]
It's like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder
How I keep from going under
It's like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder
How I keep from going under

Standing on the front stoop, hangin' out the window
Watching all the cars go by, roaring as the breezes blow
Crazy lady livin' in a bag
Eatin' out of garbage pails, she used to be a fag-hag
Said she danced the tango, skipped the light fandango
The Zircon Princess seemed to lost her senses
Down at the peepshow, watching all the creeps
So she can tell the stories to the girls back home
She went to the city and got Social Security
She had to get a pimp, she couldn't make it on her own

[2nd Chorus]

My brother's doing bad on my mother's TV
Says she watches too much, it’s just not healthy
“All My Children” in the daytime, “Dallas” at night
Can't even see the game or the Sugar Ray fight
The bill collectors they ring my phone
And scare my wife when I'm not home
Got a bum education, double-digit inflation
Can't take the train to the job, there's a strike at the station
Neon King Kong standin' on my back
Can't stop to turn around, broke my sacroiliac
A mid-range migraine, cancered membrane
Sometimes I think I'm going insane, I swear I might hijack a plane

[3rd Chorus]

My son said: ”Daddy, I don't wanna go to school
Cause the teacher's a jerk, he must think I'm a fool
And all the kids smoke reefer, I think it'd be cheaper
If I just got a job, learned to be a street sweeper
I’d dance to the beat, shuffle my feet
Wear a shirt and tie and run with the creeps
Cause it's all about money, ain't a damn thing funny
You got to have a con in this land of milk and honey"
They pushed that girl in front of the train
Took her to the doctor, sewed her arm on again
Stabbed that man right in his heart
Gave him a transplant for a brand new start
I can't walk through the park, cause it's crazy after dark
Keep my hand on my gun, cause they got me on the run
I feel like a outlaw, broke my last glass jaw
Hear them say: “You want some more?" livin' on a seesaw

[4th Chorus]

A child is born with no state of mind
Blind to the ways of mankind
God is smiling on you but he's frowning too
Because only God knows what you’ll go through
You’ll grow in the ghetto, living second rate
And your eyes will sing a song of deep hate
The places you play and where you stay
Looks like one great big alley way
You'll admire all the number book takers
Thugs, pimps, pushers and the big money makers
Driving big cars, spending twenties and tens
And you wanna grow up to be just like them, huh,
Smugglers, scramblers, burglars, gamblers
Pickpockets, peddlers even panhandlers
You say: “I'm cool, I'm no fool!”
But then you wind up dropping out of high school
Now you're unemployed, all non-void
Walking ‘round like you're Pretty Boy Floyd
Turned stickup kid, look what you’ve done did
Got sent up for a eight year bid
Now your manhood is took and you're a Maytag
Spent the next two years as a undercover fag
Being used and abused to serve like hell
'Til one day you was found hung dead in your cell
It was plain to see that your life was lost
You was cold and your body swung back and forth
But now your eyes sing the sad, sad song
Of how you lived so fast and died so young

[5th Chorus]

Song of the Week 11/17/08

Man I've been slacking lol. well this weeks song is one of my favorties. I've been through a lot this past two years, and well i can finally say there's no more drama ;)


Mary J. Blige- No More Drama

(talkin')
So tired
Tired of all this drama
You go your way
I go my way (no more, no more)
I need to be free

So tired
Tired of all this drama
Yeah

(singin')
Broken heart again
Another lesson learned
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
Cuz I can guarantee that I'll be fine

No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama (no more drama in my life, no ones gonna make me hurt again)
No more in my life

Why'd I play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn’t be around
Or maybe I liked the stress
Cuz I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don’t wanna cry no more

No more pain (no more pain x2 )
No more game (no more games messing with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life, no ones gonna make me hurt again, no more)
No more in my life

No more tears (no more tears, I'm tired of crying every night)
No more fears (no more fears I really don’t wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life I don’t ever wanna hurt again)
No more in my life
Wanna speak ma mind wanna speak ma mind

Hooh it feels so good
When you let go
Of all the drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain (free from all the pain)
Free from all the games (free from all the games)
Free from all the stress (free from all the stress)
So find your happiness

I don’t know
Only god knows where the story ends for me
But I know where the story begins
It’s up to us to choose
Whether we win or lose
And I choose to win
Ohhhh...

No more pain (no more pain, no more pain, tired of crying)
No more game (tired of your planning games with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No more in my life (no more x6)

No more tears (No more tears, no more crying every night)
No more fears (No more waking, be up in the morning)
No drama (leave me alone, go ahead)
No more in my life (hey yeah)

No more pain (no more)
No more games (no more games, I’m tired, I’m so tired)
No drama (No more x6)
No more in my life
No more

No more drama (I’m tired of all this drama)
No more drama (go ahead, go ahead, you demons getting out of my face)
No more drama (go get a my life, I'm about to lose my mind)
No more drama (help me, help me sing)

No more drama (no more drama, no more, no more)
No more drama (yeah)
No more drama (no, no more)
No more drama (help me sing, I need a piece of mine 3x)

No more drama (yeah all I need, hide but nicely I need to know that you are free)
No more drama

Oh no x2
No more x2
No more drama x2
In my, in my... life

So tired (I'm so tired)
Tired of all this drama

Song of the Week 10/27/08

This weeks song is one of my favorite, and well who doesn't want to dance with someone who loves them :)

Whitney Houston- "I Wanna Dance with Somebody"


The clock strikes upon the hour
and the sun begins to fade
still enough time to figure out
how to chase my blues away
I've done alright up 'til now
It's the light of day that shows me how
and when the night falls
loneliness calls

(Chorus) Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody
with somebody who loves me

Oh I wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah I wanna dance with somebody
with somebody who loves me

I've been in love and lost my senses
spinning through the town
soon or later the fever ends
and I wind up feeling down
I need a man who'll take a chance
on a love that burns hot enough to last
so when the night falls
my lonely heart calls

Chorus

somebody who, somebody who
somebody who loves me
somebody who, somebody who
to hold me in his arms

I need a man who'll take a chance
on a love that burns hot enough to last
so when the night falls
my lonely heart calls

CHORUS

ooh don't you wanna dance
with me baby
don't you wanna dance
with me boy

hey don't you wanna dance with me baby

with somebody who loves me

don't you wanna dance
say you wanna dance
don't you wanna dance

don't you wanna dance
say you wanna dance
don't you wanna dance

don't you wanna dance
say you wanna dance
with somebody who loves me

Song of the Week 10/21/08

This week i picked a song by Alicia Keys. I like this song because it makes me thing about when you come across something you love or want in your life, you should let that person know because you may never get another opportunity to do so. You never know they might be feeling the same way.

Alicia Keys- "Tell You Something (Nana's Reprise)"


Get so caught up everyday
Tryna keep it all together
While the time it slips away
You see I know nothing last forever

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
So all I can say

[Chorus:]
I wanna tell you something, give you something
Show you in so many ways
'cause it would all mean nothing if I don't say something before it all goes away
Don't wanna wait to bring you flowers, waste another hour let alone another day
I'm gonna tell you something, show you something, won't wait till it's too late

(I can't wait, I can't wait, I won't wait, I don't wanna wait)

Just a simple conversation
Just a moment is all it takes
I wanna be there just to listen
(I wanna be here)
And I don't wanna hesitate

Imagine there was no tomorrow
Imagine that I couldn't see your face
There would be no limit to my sorrow
'cause there's nothing that could fill that space
I don't wanna put it off for too long
I didn't say all that I had to say
I wanna take my time and right the wrong before we get to that place

[Chorus]

Just lean on my shoulder,
It's not over till it's over
Don't worry about it cause
I'm gonna make sure our bond gets stronger
I don't wanna wait till the storm and something wrong and now you're gone and I can't find you

[Chorus]

I can't wait, I can't wait, I won't wait, I don't wanna wait

Song of the Week 1

well i love music, and it seems that when i song hits me, i listen to it over and over again. So what i am going to do is put up a song that has touched me during the week. It kinds of tells you where i am in my life.

"Mr Intentional" - Lauryn Hill

Yeah, yeaaayh, yeah heh, yeah heh, yeah heh...
See the road to hell, is paved with good intentions
Can't you tell, the way they have to mention
How they helped you out, you're such a hopeless victim
Please don't do me any favors, Mr. Intentional
All their talk, is seasoned to perfection
The road they walk, commanding your affection
They need to be needed, deceived by motivation
An opportunity, to further situation
Why they so important, is without explanation
Please don't patrionize me, Mr. Intentional
Oh, ohhh, ohh ohhh
We give rise to ego, by being insecure
The advice that we go, desperatly searching for
The subconscious effort, to support our paramour
To engage in denial, to admit we're immature
Validating lies, Mr. Intentional
Open up yours eyes, Mr. Intentional
Stuck in a system, that seeks to suck your blood
Held emotionally hostage, by what everybody does
Counting all the money, that you give them just because
Exploiting ignorance, in the name of love
Stop before you drop because that's just the way it was
Please don't justify me, Mr. Intentional
Oh undementional, Mr. Intentional
Ohhh, oh don't you do me any favors
Ohhh, ohhhh, ohh ohhhh
Wake up you've been sleeping
Take up your bed and walk
Stop blaming other people
Oh it's nobody else's fault
Except the truth about you
You know that life goes on without you
And your expensive misinventions
Disguising your intentions
Don't worship my hurt feelings, Mr. Intentional
Oh, oh oh oh
See I know you can't help me, Mr. Intentional
The only help I need to live, is unprofessional
The only wealth I have to give, is not material
And if you need much more than that, I'm not available
Please don't entertain me, Mr. Intentional
Oh I dont need your sympthy, Mr. Intentional
Stay away from me, Mr. Intentional
So undementional, Mr. Promotional, Mr. Emotional, Mr. Intentional
Ohhh ohhhh, ohhhh

Its about time!!!!

so yesterday the Lions FINALLY fired Matt Millen, when he should have been fired like 4 years ago. He was by far the worst GM in the history of the National Football league. Seriously the lions wasn't that bad until he took over, and when he did the lions became the worst team in that 7 year span winning only 31 games and lossing 84...Ouch. But to all those Lion fans that are rejoicing right now, i have bad new for you...THE LIONS ARE STILL GOING TO SUCK. Its only going to get worst now, because its the middle of the season and there is nobody to take over the job yet. And when the GM gets fired, soon the coach will get fired, and then the quarterback will get traded (that part would really be a good idea though, haha) but what i am getting at is that the Lions are about to go into another rebuilding phase. Which means more top ten draft picks (hopefully they don't suck) and a lot more loses. The real solution to making the Lions better is to get rid of the people that own the team...The Fords. They are worst the Millen, because they keep hiring garbage GM's like Millen. Did you know the Lions was good at one point in time, but that was in 1957 LOL and they haven;t won a playoff game since. They are now the equivalent of the Chicago Cubs of baseball, because they can't win shit. I thought the Lions were the kings of the jungle.

Marley and Me

So i finally got my puppy YAY!!!!! haha he is a german shepard rottwiler mix...yeah hes a bad ass the vet said that he could get up to 110-120lbs, and he is 44 at 22weeks. But literally he is a bad ass, i didn't know how much work i would be raising a dog. Everything is a chew toy, i come home from work or class and i have to clean my place because he found some paper somewhere to rip apart. Oh and he teepeed my apartment with the toliot paper, that was fun cleaning haha. With all that said i love the dog. Its cool becuase whenever i leave he howls and that is the only time he howls so i know he loves me to. And he loves people, he just feels off other people's energy. Yeah so each day just keeps getting better ;)

Beautiful...

You are beautiful, so very beautiful.
Just like a winter's shining landscape,
When i look into your eyes i see nothing but a sweet escape.
Your eyes are as mysterious as the deep sea,
The time I spend with you makes me feel so Free
You're more precious than all the gems in the world,
I Just want to get caught in you love's swirl.
Your feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode,
And you posses a will that a never fold.
Your smile is the smile of lost innocence,
With a face free of all blemishes.
Pain vibrates deep inside of your gentle Soul,
A strong person is what you continue to mold.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of your mind,
A mind with as many roads but not an easy one to find.
I look at you and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky.
Millions of stars twinkle within him you.
You are as beauty as I defined it.
You are perfect, your imperfections make you so.
You are my best friend, and I love you everyday even more,
I've could not see more clearer,
that there is nobody like me worth looking at in this mirror!!!

Go On Boy

I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
He don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
He was the bad guy
I'm thinking one guy
He thinking me, Collin Don and Terry
Yep he had plenty
But love for me, he didn't have any

I was inviting, him into my heart
But he was out riding in some other man's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
He don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
He's at my house getting fucked from many men
I'm iat work, thinking hes with a friend
Just not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, him into my heart
But he was out riding in some other man's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

The mistake I made is clear
we never should've been together
Thats the reason you're not here
I know that I can do much better
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Boy

Deuces

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes I throw a party on Mars, climb the highest mountains, and swim the bottom of the deepest seas. I run with cheetahs and walk with snails. I lay in a spider's web and and get bit by snakes. I fly with the fish and swim with the birds. I pitch to the greatest batters, and Hit the greatest pitchers. I play the guitar with Jimi Hendrix, and and sing songs of love with Bob Marley. I dance with Cab Calloway and like switchfoot i dare you to move. I lay in the grass and watch the stars become suns. Then I open my eyes and smile ;D

I Had A Dream

One day a friend came up to me and asked where I’ve been.

I simply replied, “Dreaming.” She laughed and asked what I was dreaming about. So I told her…

“I had a dream that grown men acted like grown men.

I had a dream that I heard a rap song that wasn’t degrading of women and women would stop degrading themselves.

I had a dream that being a thug, gangsta, or pimp was just a thing of the pass.

I dreamed of a time when people stopped stepping on each other just to get ahead in life.

I had a dream that black people stopped calling each other niggas.

I had a dream when people did less talking and more walking.

I had a dream that my 10 year old African brother wasn’t kidnapped and forced to kill his own mother. That my 15 year old Middle Eastern sister could let the world see her beautiful face, and my plus sized sister realized how beautiful she was.

I had a dream that cows weren’t mad.

I had a dream that the man on the corner asked for my name, and not for my change.

I had a dream that I could walk down the streets of Beijing without a gas mask.

I had a dream that a person’s color or gender wasn’t an issue in running for president.

I had a dream that the government’s main objective wasn’t keeping its people in debt. I had a dream that the government took care of our problems before they decide to go save the world.

I had a dream when I went to the hospital the first question was “what is wrong?” and not “do you have insurance?”

I had a dream that the president cared less about his war and fame and cared more about my mom and her tumors.

I dreamed of a time people cared more about what’s in my head and less about the guy in my bed.

I had a dream that when I was younger we had enough food that my parents didn’t go days without eating. I had a dream that growing up I wasn’t laughed at because I got my clothes from the churches clothes drive. I dreamed that we played flashlight tag at home not because the power was out but because we want to.

I had a dream that my biggest mistakes weren’t putting trust in people.

I had a dream that when you said you loved me, it really meant something to you.

I had a dream that my dreams kissed your soul and sparked change in your life, but then again was just dreaming?”

With Me

Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled

And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within...

A REAL MAN

You see I like a REAL man, so let me tell you about that kind of man i want to know,
About 5'10, 165, & he's all the way live, see I like em like that,
He don't talk smack, & when you see him you might say he brought sexy back,
See that's the only kind of dud I'm dreaming of,
And hopefully one day I'll find one with a lot of love,

I need a real man
No short wearing jeans
One that uses his brain
And my love is all he wants to gain
Hood boys, Hot Boys, Rock, boys, Street boys, White boys
Yeah i love em all but I'm lookin for somethin more REALER then a toy

He knows how to treat a man, & he's a man that needs no backup plan
O I love when he gets rowdy, & in the morning he wakes me to a sexy "howdy"
He makes me smile & thats what i like most about em
He's all I see and all i need, & until i find him my search is gonna proceed
I swear that man is the truth, & i can't wait for him to jump out the phone booth.

I need a real man
No short wearing jeans
One that uses his brain
And my love is all he wants to gain
Hood boys, Hot Boys, Rock, boys, Street boys, White boys
Yeah i love em all but I'm lookin for somethin more REALER then a toy

CAN YOU BE THAT MAN???

I am Someone

I am someone
I walked past a dead face
even though the person was alive
I saw my eyes in the mirror
and cried at the sight
I looked at a person I didn't know
and I met a friend
I got heads to turn
when I walked past
I learned a lot about myself
when I lost a new friend
I cried every tear in my body
when I thought about love
I got hit bad
then got back in the ring
I climbed a mountain of rocks
and saw an eagle fly over- head
I heard terrible things about myself
when no one thought I was listening
I realized I was strong
when I didn't cry when it hurt
I found out who I was
when I was with someone else
I thought I was lost forever
when a friend found me
I held a life in my hand
and it was my own
I was a pawn in someone else's game
so I surrendered to a brook
I walked the fine line between surviving
and not wanting to survive
I still am
I am someone

Can't Help But Wait

Time and time again people ask me "who are you jax?" and i say, "I don't know, i can't explain myself in person." but they just think that is a load of crap. I can only be me, and i think my actions speak louder then words, but since people need words to understand me, i guess i will try and explain who jax really is:

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Confident

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Free

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Music

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Football

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Baseball

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Sports

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Sad

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Happy

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Emotional

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Today

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Tomorrow

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am the Future

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Strong

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Weak

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Sexy

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Ugly

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am my mother's Baby

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am my father's little Man

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a Phoenix

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a Lion

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am today's Rain

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am tomorrow's Rainbow

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a cool breeze in the Sky

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a swift current in the Ocean

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a smile on a bad Day

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a frown on a good Night

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am LOUD!!!!!!!

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Quiet (shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am tonight's Moon

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am the morning's Sun

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a Loner

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a social Butterfly

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a lazy Fool

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am a hard Worker

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am the Shit

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Fresh

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am the Best

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Precious

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Unique

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am Something Special

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am complicated to those who can't see

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am unwritten

I can't help but wait for you to see that i am.....ME